xXOnce upon a time...When i was happy...[aperfextfairytale;forabrokensoul]Xx

2007-08-15T07:03:00.001-07:00

i pray that its gonna be fine

2007-08-08T07:40:00.000-07:00

i loved todayyy!!!
today was a super awwweeesooommmmeeee day!
omgosh netball girls out~woo!
-beth(:
-helen(:
-me!
-sher(:
-iv[the horrible bowler! X) ]
-sya!
-jes!!!
-shalina!!
n hafi n pl joined fer a while!
it was a fantasic day la!
after national day whatever, we played catching for like super long then went mac's for lunch n went to bowl n then finally chocolate fondue at sher's house!! super easy to sum it up [cause im too lazy to type] IT WAS SUPER FUN!!! ;D

omgosh i really loved it, so carefree!!!! ;D for once im damn happy((: unlike normal days..when other ppl are ard..but who cares! i'll totally enjoy going for netball nowindays and totally look forward to it!!! ((: thanks guys for changing my perpective!!!

I LOVE NETBALL,& THE PEOPLE!!! ;D

2007-08-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

i saw this girl,
sitting alone in a dark corner.
she wore all black,
and seemed crying,
to my back.
she sung a sad song,
a song of,
friends,family,and love.
she seemed all depressed,
i could feel it from above.
it was all around her,
the aura of sadness.
O,i wish i could have helped her,
to prevent her tears.
but she sung this song,
a specail song of death.

"O, i wish my family could know,
to know of all i've been through,
through pain,sadness,happiness & joy,
through a life lead full of emptyness.
O i wish my lover could know,
how sorry i am to him,
to betray my word,to hurt myself,
to cut, and bleed,
it never stops,
and these tears that have not an end.
O i wish my friends could know,
how torn i feel inside,
how much pain they have caused me,
only to laugh at the end.
how much different i feel,
secretly hating them inside,
through all of this i know i've been living a lie.
O how i envy i could be like them,
happy and full of bliss.
But i know i only can end this,
in the only way i know of,
which is death."

What a song to hear to my ears,
from above,
a sinfull,tragic song,
i wished i could help that girl,
as i saw her end.
i hoped that she went to a happy place,
a place where i belong,
a place full of joy and happiness,
a place that she longed.

i saw thisgirl only once more,
full of joy and laughnig,
laughing at a picture,
a picture inherhands.
so i took a look closer,
only to find what i least expected.
all her friends,
were dead,
and neverto be mended.

2007-07-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

smt i start to hate the ppl i used to love.
well it totally sucks tho.
i miss my sis.
UNDER CONSTRUCTION
n agian
TO TAKE AWAY EVERYTHING ;D

2007-07-24T04:16:00.000-07:00

i'd probally take another year,
TO TAKE AWAY EVERYTHING.

2007-07-06T19:21:00.000-07:00

wha000 these past few days have been-- WOOT!!!
whahaah so like kelvin and andy were trying to krump in class i was like NONO thats so wrong haha sheren was also tryin ta correct all their wrong moves hahaha. n kelvins so proud to "" be able to krump"" in his mind hahah so damyn funny uh! then what eddie was as disgusting as ever! n sheren as lame as ever!!! hhahah so fun !! eddie was like doing some really disgusting things n stuff yuk!! haha this week also i discovered smt in one of my friends blogs..lemme just say omgosh!!! ** my eyes were scar--ed for life!! eeewww hahaha

hmm also made a new friend hes cool n yahh.next week is totally loaded with tests!!! n practices.i mean 6 hours a day...thats madness! i just hope we'all like got enouf skill to show some ppl in qtss y we love what were doing more then netball .& thats the reason y my passion in netball has beed sucked dry. it better we worth it from the practices!! so thats like whats been happenin' lately.. hmm so many projects n stuff! its beeennnn soooo long since i blogged so i decided to write crap, n thats y m here hahha. N sheren !!! i AMMMM not full of crap ok! hmpfff..... hahah so what else? oh...recently got this like operation n stuff on my hand,n i cant sweat! doctors orders.. bt heck la.O!! n also got caught like 3 times in two days for taking the lift!! like wth!! so sway!!! ok nvm.well i think thats enouf crap so byee!!! ((:

[/m3Ll](:

2007-06-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

well, heya ppl im here stuck in thailand for what was to be 1 n a half weeks but now a half week left so yah.i'll be back on sat i think.oh gosh n i despertly need some1 to fax me the hmwk cause i lost it all!!! ahhh ...oh well i think my brain has turned to mush anyways...*grumble* the passports are done yesterday just went to "maboonkong" n went shopping for a while..OH! i got a pair of these super cool converse shoes!!! yayayay!!! its like white leather n has metal studs on it!! haha gonna use it fer sch(: but too bad its all white...anyways i also saw these super nice nike's that i wanted to buy but too bad no size... so yup... anyway there have been some troubling matters on my mind here when im secluded from society but i try to put it away n get on with the night....hfffffff.....so i've been tryin ta wrap up the months n here it goes...

JULY
*camp
*n a secret competti(:

AUGUST
*prep 4 aces

SEPT
*aces dance!!!
*nnn time to read books to boost my vocab

OCT
*study! exams are near

that wraps up the months to come then! simple !
so then back m back in stinkapore again i think i'll be staying bout two days er smt then yay! off too indo! yayayayay

the foods here great tho...i'll miss it dearly!! bye wonderfull mouth watering food!! n a specail goodbye to my B.U.T.I full durain!!

hahah so yah theres my half-hearted blog post.
[sewadka(:]
melly

2007-05-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

do you guys ever notice that i only write on my blog when im dead bored or juest fuking furious? or angry? hahah yah welll....here goes the "spilling of emotions" again...

FACT/HINT:
u open ur mouth too fast nowindays. please shut it?

OPINON:
u both are perfect for each other..u do not need me..i often feel like...even tho pleople say i ya,my appreciation n thanks to them.but beside u both i feel...just depleated...of everything.. with a sprawling mind of thoughts as well.

WELL! OFF TO THAILAND NOW!

[sewadika(:]

M3L;(:

2007-05-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

OOOUUUHHHHHHH....
how i WILL of the intoxicating warmth and soft fluffy comfort of my bed!!! aiiii... what an impossible feat...i wish sleep could overcome me until tmr begins and i'll wake up into another dream of a nightmare....aiiiiiiiii......lucky exams are finish and over! i feel like m drifting in and out, in an out...sleeping entering a peacefull slumber then only waking up to find horror again. what is that man? gooosshhhhh....

2007-05-21T04:09:00.000-07:00

i have a self-conscience, n i know, he does tell tall tales! and a great bunch at that fact! but even thou he may be over-exagerating or whateva, there are just some things that are unexplainable,that i've seen with my own naked eyes.dont you know im sick of it?-dreadfully i am! long before u discovered may at that as well.Wracking my brains night and day for an appropreate conclusion that wun involve you in any of this mess? i tried, i tried so hard, believe me i will never lie about these things n u should know that. i've been trying to differ fact from fiction,fiction from fact until i just explode and end up crying.just ask sheren.anywhere anytime, i will just start.hav'nt u wondered y my exam results dun satify me? m dissapointed in myself for having my mind stubbornly refusing to absorb whats in the textbook and having to slap myself as it lingers on other disturbing thoughts.i've been trying so hard.TOO hard.trying to push away reality.always.its on my mind.

too let u know.if i didnt care about u, or have any feelings at all,n just be a heartless bitch, y do u think i even let these painfull tears crawl on my pillow at night? if i didnt give a heck,wait.WHO do u even think stayed with u for hours n hours trying to console u on ur problems? all those times, at the busstop.i could have just left u crying.did u ever think y i would do that? same as u of course.just trying to be a perfect friend.somehow i see it as u do not heed my hours of advice smts.only those more experienced say a word or two n u heed theirs.its obvissous,u smts say so urself.this is one of the matters i do not understand as well. even thou i was terribly bothered by it,i was still by urside. so ask me y.

Well,if they are enough for u.[no offense S & S, u two are great ppl!] go ahead be happy again.i know u saw me, in the bus, letting them cascade down my cheeks.i wonder how u felt bout that.i dunnoe.well, anyway, i really really thought u would last, i reallyreally liked u,val , i loved u as a friend.I'LL let u know this though.,

half of me wants to embrace u and say sorry.
another half wants to glare at u and stalk off.

i've been controlling my sides to even out.
ur reasons for going with them are all explainable, i understand totally.but other matters, are .....just unexplainable and i do not want to mention them. i do not want to stir up more than there already is. im just confused.the only thing is to prove it.n know this as well, we are not gullible ppl, u think we would fall for the crap most of the time he gives? NO. we'll not.n i know u know that.were smart people. if we make any decisions it is with a hell lot of great care and thought, considering every possiblity.n seeing proof of every angle ourselves. so i shall mention again, i do not want to explain more then whatever there is uncovered already. im not sure u heard everything that bloody traitor said.so now, i let u wonder, y would we do any of this? figure out urself. but be wise val, think of everything,take a night off to wonder what were affected by, and how we feel. n U more than anyone else shuld know we hate too lose friends.anyway, all that time, do u think we would throw it away for nothing?

but we'll always love u as a friend,even if u walked out.
what u heard was wrong, i do not hate u.
just dissapointed.in him.n u.
some things are ridiculous but we heck it.
but all the small things add up,too bigger ones.
n im sick of everything, i just wish i could forget this knowlegde of this matter in my head, but i've pushed it away,just too long.

we'll always be there for u,for ur info,feel free to come to us for advice, we ask for nothing in return, just wishfull thinking. please val,think about it, i beg of u.i know nobody is perfect and this is all too fast but u have to go thru these problems one day no doubt. it will give experience u know that. so i guess...its now.for our bad year,bad month, . the f*cking rooster.it pains be dearly to lose the closest sec school friend too me as well...[sheren's a p'sch friend!] ....i weep for my loss dearly.untill there r no more tears.u noe me , i'll always reassure myself that "its not worth crying over mel,its just not worth it" but im dead wrong.it does not help me.anyways,whats there to gain from a loss? emptyness? no thats not it...

so night.

[P.S. ur D&G one? is'nt that the black and gold one that faroza also has? if it is then yah,u did wear it to school b4 n told quite a lot of ppl i rmb vividly.but that matter does not bother me ,unlike him.] (i think)

2007-05-14T07:13:00.001-07:00

ONE THING.

my luvff 4 yah has gone dorment.
so its old news.
ill leave it behind now.
one night.one more time.
well thnks fr the mmrs.
even tho some of them were breaking.
thanks.
well some ppl r gonna get happy.
dun get ur hopes up.
m staying the way i m.

& JUST ANOTHER THING.

whats wrong wif u.
u bitch.
i dun wanna play along.
i refuse to go n fake.i know u love that.
u take every opportunity.
dont yah bitch.
well i let them pass.
even tho i might be more than u.
i know my limits.
n i REFUSE to lose my dignity.
n i dun wana THROW AWAY my pride.
i m aware too not-lose-myself now.
if thats anything i learnt frm that book.
its stupid.
don't make a fool of urself.
u might b pretty if u shut ur mouth.
cause when u open it , u lose ur image.
comgrats.ask urself y.

i would help u.
if u consider me as a friend.
cause u sure do not treat me as one.
to caught up wif ur bitch business.
hahhaha.
sometimes i cant wait to go to canada.
yay here i come.
singapore's not for me.

2007-05-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

hey guys,m practicing my english fer tmr's compo paper startin nw , so scoot.
And please do not be dissmayed or frustrated at trying to descipher at the inquirious words i will will writing. i hope you feel free and dispel all your qualms of the surrounding knowlege of these words i am periloisly typing at my pitfull and disputed blog where people like me , oftenlly sprawl our deepest endearing moments and highly anticipating memories of our dear lives. so i shall begin now, of a simple but intriging recount of my day, at least somewhat.

it started out as noraml...HMM this is boring shit i'll continue smt else but more inster esting yay!

ok...

as the faint whispers of the insects empassing the square entered my ears, i saw a lone figure standing alone................................

ok im tired night!!!

2007-04-27T08:52:00.000-07:00

unclear

2007-04-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

wowow m so happy ,went shopping today yay ! bought lots of nicenicenicey things! woot.yay(: hahaah gosh in my lifetime i bet i spent at least 150 bucks on chicken rice hahahh smt liddat ahhaah.ohh i saw hamza [my dance instructor] at fareast today! ahhaah yay its so nice to see him hes so cute! ahha well i think i'll continue his lessons cause its fun yah (: well peace fer nw!

idresz whad i feel like~a freelancer
one day goth,
one day emo,
one day hip hop,
one day goth,
one day sweet(:,
one day girly(:,
one day dark,
one day light,
one day simple,
one day messed up,
one day complicated,
one day a beachbum,
one day industrail goth,
one day tomboyish
one day japanese,
one day fancy,
one day i'll mock ah lians for the heck of it hhahah
one day hmmm....

offfhhhhhh
[M3lL](:

2007-04-13T04:57:00.000-07:00

tell me if tts cool,
tell me baby could u be my entourage?
please be my personal superstar((:

hahha well a while ago went to check out my bro's well done cool dance at the stomp the floor competti hahha tt was cool n no prob 4 coming to support ya'all, o good to see u to hahah missed yur face((: .so nowindays i've been going oschool n taking flava hh. hahha its damn cool uh all the steps!!! so lyk duh! i'll b continuin hahha well xams coming up soon yeah my gosh so fast one week has pasted hhaha its mid april alr ! my gosh b4 i'll know it it'll b aces day, n talentime wowow!better gett pimped up b4 tt hahha well cyah all l8r! oyah one mor thing m so looking forward 2 seein ma another bro coming back to sing frm aus aiii.. [nt ma real blood bro ok! i've none!]...long time to wait till then... hahah ciao all!

offffhhhhh
[M3lL](:

2007-04-01T06:19:00.000-07:00

4gt bout what i siad in the other post hahaha i take it back for the 1st f-er.

okok yastaday was like OMG. first sherne said she wanted to go the great world city to have a peaceful nice time at the arcade cause she siad that SURLY we sould'nt see anyone there.but forget bout tt sheren u were dead wrong!fristly when we were walking to the arcade we saw veronica n gang we were lyk my god! then while waidin for the ddr ppl to scram we saw PAMELA. kk then we decided to get outta the arcade just as we were bout to step out we saw nat's flrity friend.like shit omg 3 ppl counting . then when we went downstairs outside mcdonalds guess who we saw in the mirror styling their hair? DEREK, n gang sitting beside him.so we decided to get out uh.but while at the taxi stand u know what? we decided to go bowling at kim seng plaza so we went through yoshinoya and stopped by at "The CoCoa Trees" then suddenly this persons head suddely popped out of nowhere n i was lyk "What?????" guess who? HELENA so we said hi n chatted a while.5 ppl+ counting. then she said hey wanan see (: ???? i waas lyk huh? then she went away n came back with jeff n we said hi n chatted.so we found out they were actually goin to kim seng plaza as well hahha then we ciao-ed n went to kimseng on the way there we meet SHAWN n his friend i see everywhere.8 ppl+ counting. after tt we meet BOON CHEW in the elevator goin to the bowling place my god in the elevator ae!!! ohhh myy gosssh ok n yah that was waht we did. on friday went out super late returned home at 4am++ sheren sleept over sat we went great world i sleept over at her hse n yah herei am today oh shit tmr have to do passport shit hahaha.

signing offfhhhh
[MelL]

2007-03-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

u know what i JUST HAVE TO LET this out ok...i seriously seriously lvd u more than anyone...n i hate tt u care bout ur bros like WAY MORE too say smt that really really just hit me.N U!!! another one fuck the shitest crap outta u, if U REALLY lvd me then u would only want me to b happy n want be so like intruding into all of my business ok! fuck u mannn//./// it really hurt what U asked n wat THAT person replyed,,,..U know what? fuck ALL this shit."i know ur avoiding me i have no idea y so fuck off n well u lyk my sis sure mann...FUCK EVERYTHING. jus everything. asses mann tts all they are.GUYS assmtmore U CAN LIVE WITHOUT THEM THATS THE FACT.

oh ya thanks sheren for all the support,really thanks a lot hahha u knew excalty what to say to me, if u didnt notice as u were talking i thought bout everything n just let go of the cross tt was in my hand..just as it was abt 2 let blood trickle down... thanks(:

2007-03-27T06:41:00.001-07:00

is it justa passion or smiply smt more?
im not sure but if it isnt then what the f is?
i love it-YES.
but im sick n tired of ppl going on..n on... lyk there no tmr.
sickening just sickening could they please STOP!
i know u all vry gd uh OK? but no need to ssay untill liddat..
LOOKING DOWN ON TEACHERS... thinking ur all tt ok i know!
WATEVER SHIT I HATE IT!!!

2007-03-18T06:12:00.000-07:00

f*Ed up
shareen smacked some sense into me.
smt i was kinda waidin for
it brought me back 2 reality
hahha well im back back back
back again again agian hahah
well got a new black cat in indo
her name's jinx n shes adoribleC:
im outt-[M3LL]

oh shit i almost forgot,
its my bday on wed omg.

2007-03-02T02:19:00.000-08:00

kk i have actually realise smt..
u treat everybody the same,
ur very friendly hahha

mel get over it

2007-02-28T06:22:00.000-08:00

hmmmmmmm... need some time to think...

omgosh! theres a netball match tmr! n cm3 presentation n also history test! oh crap!

2007-02-27T03:28:00.000-08:00

i think its confirmed,
it has gone dry,
without a sight,a view a word..
n the way u.. nvm.
ur a different person.
an almost totally different person.
so what?maybe u dont care?
hahha then i will not either((:
ur too different for me.
i guess...

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but
I can't move I can't look away
I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why
I've waited so long
Looking back I realize It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

nice song yea?

2007-02-26T05:39:00.000-08:00

two things.
number one,
its my money and i should b able to do what i want with it.we shouldnt fight over a silly matter liddhis.

number two.
ur so cute ur smile,
makes me melt inside,
ur laughs n jokiness,
always brights up my day((:
i did not copy u oh! hahha

YAYAY cant wait till Val's b day! i hope i can get tt B.E.U.Tifull dress((: yay oh yah hey [....] u still if u want ur bandana get it frm me! esle i'll keep it((: hahha
night(:

2007-02-25T00:32:00.000-08:00

i needed a break,
n i got one,
then it came to me,
i knew it was there,as strong as ever,
but it felt like it wasnt,but forever?
i dunno but itstillremains there inmaheart,
butwhichiwaswinning?
maheartor mamind?

let the music take me away((:
i ccant believe it hahha imma gonan save all my $$ k and get thouse silver or black n white AF's yea.. also finally! yay im so happy my mom allowed me to take up hamza n o'schools classes woot happy happy happy, krumpin n whacking here i come woo~! hahha hmm... better work hard all my grades are droppin from lyke A1 & A2's ta failing shit i need h3lp mann hahha im gonna study pay attention n work hard ... hahha but of course to me PPr's are nothing its the mid years n end years that count hahha. well so gonna study hards,workhard,shophard,& dancehard hahah kk. usally i dont practice at home though hahah only at classes hahah kk cause i hate ta sweat yea hahah ((: peace ya'all fer noww((:

ROCK HARDCORE

2007-02-18T05:55:00.000-08:00

sick shit...im sick of almost all of this...
homework piling up,
probems i need to face,
confused just very confused...
bu sometimes somethings just make me feel happy again((:
and then m back to reality n life..
n back with even more confusion???

happy happy happy
but really am i??
or
just confused???
twisting myself into a very werid fake reality of fantasy just to keep myself going on?
cause the truth is too much for me to handle?
i have no iddeeeaaaa
or am i actuallyok?

YAY tmr ang baos!!! from lilings party yayyayyay hopefully ang baos for me !! yay yay yay happy happy happy woo~ screw the music system on this com! its broken mann! YUK gotto wear skinkin white tmr! hahahaha well ok guys hey! HAPPY CNY k??!!!! enjoy urselfs! well i gotto do loads of hw n aomehow find a place in my house to practise dance without my family members there.hahah well check u'all later k!

(:night

2007-02-16T04:56:00.000-08:00

nice skin n song right?> hahahah -->going indo tmr shit -->lots of hw!!!!!! -->Body pain from dancein! n netballin! c yah all lata >
[M3LL]-off[MeLL]-off

2007-02-11T06:09:00.000-08:00

the last time i saw u,
i really didnt know whether i loved u,
whether it was a truth to reality,
or merely a basic lie to cover up my fears of loosing u again.
to face the simplicity of life that i could not see u no more.
At that priecing moment when both of our words met,
my mind swriled into a bundle of painfull yet joyfull memories.
a sea of thouseand thoughts pulling me away me from my heart,
but just then,
i realised in my heart that i just yet couldnt let go of what u meaned to me,
so i glanced back of what i left behind,
torn between two worlds,
n i saw u standing there..
n i saw a happiness that was never there,
i knew i had u, in myheart, in me,
i could never be sad,cause i knew at least u were happy,
it was enough to satisfy my need to live.
Thank you for showing what brightness means to me.
a true feeling that i've never felt before (:
Thankyou.

2007-02-05T05:12:00.000-08:00

wuaine

2007-02-03T19:27:00.000-08:00

IM SO HYPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
The world is such a beautiful place sometimes(:

at least for 2 0r 3 days then i'll b sad again):
u tried n lived n u but just can fight the feelin inside,u know it, n i can see it in ur eyes,
as smooth as a mother,i can feel it in the beat.

<<<<<<<<<<<3333333

2007-02-03T19:19:00.000-08:00

IM SO HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

my life is back again mann!!!! the world is so beautifull(:
but only for 2 or 3 days that is then i'll b sad agian):

2007-02-03T02:21:00.000-08:00

i/weill/be/waiding/till/then):

[waiting since day 1]
[n now still..]
[waitting..]
[theres no meaning..]
[to life right now..]
[anymore..]

till april then...
r u really him?
or have i been dilussional?
at/least/i/will/try/cause/i/need/u/back../to/movitivate/me/n/to/teach/me/once/again/to/not/let/go/of/my/dreams..

2007-01-25T03:56:00.000-08:00

SUN GLARING,SWEAT DRIPPIIN',MUSCLES ACHIN', HAWT SMOKING NETBALLING :D

...but not tadayy.....henderson?--11/21--beatty?--14/7--C.H.I.J?--shutup and dont even ask please (: hahha overall i say we did ok i guess hahha we lost with pride! but of course still sadness was glooming over us all....

-------------------------looks like the weather totally sided us--------
----------------------pouring down on the netball court---------------
--------------------omen?--------------------------------------------

but this is not it! QUEST will be back with glory baby!!!! one fine day (: hahha

its ok sya....we all still love u. (:

[MeLL](: off

2007-01-22T03:56:00.000-08:00

WHICH BITCH/BASTARD IS HELLING OUT ALL THIS FUCKED UP SICK SHIT CRAP TO ME?
-WHO KNOWS?
-fuck all the stupid ridiculous things i cant believe i went through..all i can say that ..the only things real in the world are what? i bet u cant even name a single craped up thing.
\friends?-they leave you one dayy
\family?-do they actually ever understand you?[i know they tried though]
\love?-this sick shit betrays us all.
\food?-great stuff urself full n get miserable cause you became fat.
\money?-hahha it does not get everything youu wantt..
-so what actuallyy makes us feel better when we realise all these lies? hahha saying vaugaritys.hahha all of us has been fooled once.so go ahead sream with me.

2007-01-17T05:02:00.000-08:00

my cool good friend jeff, has left us all!!! [actually i knew this a long time ago] to go to other countries 4ever!!!! i think ~ whether he would vist who knows...great just greatand now im just hanging on by a thread...well this is to jeff!

-u have inspired me, and was my motivation 2 b...
*a better person
*kinder
*to b much more friendly
*never give up[even in things u suck at...one day u will become great..]
*thanks for inspiring me too dancee jeff...
*have a change in music
*try new things
*even if u have a bad fall, get back up...
*and a hell lot of other things... this is too u jeff, my good hip-hop nigga friend. All The Best.(:

2007-01-13T23:18:00.000-08:00

things are going werid hahha well right now im enjoying going to school y u ask? cause hahha i love my friends (: n at least i have something to do instead of like staying home getting angry at my family or watever shit. so hey wait, dont get me wrong i still seriously miss all the sec 4's.their gone!!! ): school of course is still boring and lifelesss and their is no point in staying back... well i need to seriously get a real life or something cause it feels like a dream. So what now hmm??? well yestaday i had an enjoyable time at sherens party hahha.the ther gang is nicee((: n finally i could see my P-school friends!!!! woo-hooo......... hmmmm.....

cant believe hes gone...):
thats whats missing i think.

2007-01-11T00:56:00.000-08:00

i've always thought that the things u bought for me were gifts, somthing that i DERSERVE cause i work much harder.if shareen gets them too, its no wonder why all i feel is cheated.its no wonder why she always encourages me to buy stuff.its all makes sense now.if i work hard n b top in class n all i get is ur love when shareen gets that 2 its so unfair even by my standards. i thought family was the one thing that would never ever lie to me. but im dead wrong . i dont need to work hard i dont even need to tell the truth what for when shareens just gonna get it all rewards back too.so if i work hard shes gets what i deserve is that what the hell u call fair i just cant take this....i was wrong...u can never count on family.

this is excally word-by-word what i said to my mother.

2007-01-08T01:24:00.000-08:00

hhmmm long time since i blogged peepzz... school is like so loney n the sec 1's are all nerds shit lah its like so damnymmm fucking boring...shit la alll this is just crap mann....school now is *too peaceful so i reboned some of my hairr... who is there to see it? it doesnt matter all this shit. n when promises r left broken u know it when u have nobody too count on...

I'm sick and I'm twisted
I'm broken you can't fix it
Don't make me, cause
I'll do itRed button and we'll all go

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...
They'll think I'm insane but you'll all know my name!

Fuck this stupid F-in lonely peacefull shit~
sure its nice sometimeeessss.....

2006-12-31T05:06:00.000-08:00

and alas, once again fallen in love,with a beautiful song(: [Billy Talent-fallen leaves]
oh n Canada rocks hahha

In a crooked little town,
they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves…
on the groundI hitched a ride,
until the coast
To leave behind,
all of my ghosts
Searching for something,
I couldn’t find at home
Can’t get no job,
can you spare a dime?
Just one more hit,
and I’ll be fineI swear to God,
this’ll be my one last time!
In a crooked little town,
they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground
Run away before you drown,
or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground
When it gets dark,
in Pigeon ParkVoice in my head,
will soon be fed
By the vultures,
that circle round the dead!
In a crooked little town,
they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground
Run away before you drown,
or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the groundI
never once thought,
I’d ever be caught!
Staring at sidewalks,
hiding my track marks!
I left my best friends,
or did they just leave me?
In a crooked little town,
they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground(x2)
Run away before you drown,
or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground
Run away before you drown!
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground (x2)

2006-12-30T04:36:00.000-08:00

hey loves! im back!!! WOOO and finally may i metion, canada n the us are nice but theres still no place like home(: in hawt stinkapore hahah

2006-12-17T21:55:00.000-08:00

VICTORIA IS BEAUTIFULL((:
omg i love life in victoria its sooo awesome its a bit city, like a bit high rised , spaceous n loads of greenery plus the cats there are so adorible n SSOOOO cute!!! hahha im outta here(: got an early morning tmr.hahha adiyost!

2006-12-13T19:03:00.000-08:00

oh hello people again!!! WOOO~ guess where i am??? Orlando;Florida!!!! n fer what i am here for u r guessing??? DISNEYWORLD!!!!! WOOO~ u heard it right, DISNEYWORLD!!! the biggest disney themepark in the world eap, WOOHOOO hahh alr came back from disney it was great n today i went to universal themepark n WOOOOO let me shout "THERE ARE SOME ALBSOULETLY WICKED COASTERS THERE!!! omg Omg OMG!!!! wooo went on them whoa great man holded u by the torso[chest] feet dangling upside down going super long n wicked rollercoasters!!!! not to metion some major sweet ddrops hahha wicked COOL! WOOO ~~~ hahha ok n eap hmmmm....more shopping n suveniers n stuff woo~ cool nice stuff(: i like more stuff(: its great!!! (: hahha well my sis sreamed her head off every single ride hahha but weLL she said "where else could u scream like that?" well so i joined her fer a while then my lungs hurt so nah not any more hahha

but im stll worryin n thinkin bout whad hell it would b to b a suky sec 2 soo hmmm....hahha right now my brain seriously feels like mush hahha but than again it always feels like this hahha hmmmm so well right now i've been havin a cold ): n it sux big cause than haaiiiiizzzz go everywhere i also have to "sniff,sniff" ): doesnt feels good.hahah weLL i guesss tmr i have to fly back to Washington:Virgina than i have a day there to pack n gather my stuff n then off to seattle!!! for a day then will b going Canada to go sking eap after that i will back bac
in hawt stinkapore [sry no offense]
hahha jk ,
of course i mean it!!!
KIDDING la!!!!
hahha tts fun(: weLLL my sis jusezt told me chris angel is on n im gonna go catch his show so bye fer now people!!!

2006-12-07T08:54:00.000-08:00

hmm..wow well thats smt to know.

HEY!!! WOO~ IN america right now hahha well i arrive here on sat so let me start this super super long blog entry from there hahha-

SATURDAY~
whooaaaa the flight to the us wasss sooo looonnggg!!! omg my poor cramped legs wha00 hahha the flight to japan was 6 hrs hmmmm japan is an expensive place hahha one bowl of noodles can cost up ta 20 sing bucks gawdd rip off! hahha so well the airplane food was i guess reasonable hahha my family n i took "United Airlines" hmm n well again as usual i got the window seat wooo! hahha my sis sat next to me , and she was the only thing keepin me alive hahha. so well when we arrive in japan we went walking round 2 hours n as usaul durin the time my sis was hell convinceing my parents to let her dye her hair highlighter red man [ i helped(:] hahha nn finally some approvevallL hahha.

hmmm on the plane to the us [12 hours] same type of cramped seat same airline [ yuckky airline ] hahha sooo n again the window seat WOO HOO eap(: my sis keep me company beside me hahha so airplane food was o.k. yeap then when we arrived at the airport first thing i noticed hahha this airport looks the same as the thailand airport nn guess whad??? there were so many B.I.G ppl!!! ahhh whaaa i felt soo small hahha hmmm then ppl hadd so many diff types of haircoluor there wha000 yeap.i could wait to get outside n fell the cold airr!!! i couldnt imagine whad in the world it would be like! yay ! hahha saw my uncle ther [yay! hes nice(:] then went outside finnally! whooaaa n let me tell u all back in hawwttt stinkapore whad it was like '''
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TOTALLY FREE AIR-CON!!!!!
EVERYWHERE!!!! DAMN COOL sia! hahha
omg boyyyyy was it damn freakin colddd!!! buuurrrrrr....'''hahha
-n after that bB.E.AU.Tifull moment of wind gushin by ur face coollddd aiiirrr nice(: went to settle down into a friends house cause she was outta town ohhh u know whad??? there are like almost no condos here man i didnt see a building more than wadddd 6 stories high??? all house here are like seriously houses haahhha saymnn stylo sia ! hahha COOL.(: the us is a horse country(:lotsa open space n sttufff COOL.
-end of SAT(:

SUNDAY~
woke up and went around the place [walked] round a lake here nn ohh! may i metion places here are like in sorta villages so i walked around the village here some shops restuarants n stuff . yeap. there are lots of squirrels here mann!!! OMG hahaha full of squrrels hahha UR full of squirrels! hahha jkjk n my uncle actually fed a squirrell with an acorn (: hahha BUT u know whad? the acorn right... my siss put it in my hoodie! she hid it there ! [blasted sis] cause she was lazy to carry it ...whad the hell right??? hahha so after that went to get some hot chocolate at a cafe in the village hahha nice n sweet(: hot chocolate hahha

oh n i forgot whad we did after that but for dinner went to this place called " FUDDRUCKERS" wha000 best hamburgers in the world(: n milkshakes(: hahha n then we returned back to the house for a night
-end of SUN

MONDAY~
went shopping for the whoolllLLLEEE DAY bought loads of great stuff n went too "HOT TOPIC" as well i spent like 60+ american bucks there while m sis over 120 hahha that shop is so cooLLL hahha bought some winter boots as well , a bag n, gifts n loads of otha stuff 2! hahha found out my christmas budget as well hmmm it was bout whaddd 550 i think yea cool hahha i dunno whether thats good or not but its still cash(: hahha n that was the day(:
-end of MON

TUESDAY~
hmmm i tottalyy forgot whad happened this day cr-ap. oh went to the air n space museum n went shopping for groceries n ate some delicous wings(:
-end of TUES-

WEDNESDAY~
was forced to go tomoooreeee museums ):

oh will continue blogging lata! have to go shopping now(: yay more stuff(:

2006-12-01T03:48:00.000-08:00

today was fun(:
hahha in the morning bout 10 met clara went to heeren [all shops closed!] then after that went to meet sheren at her bus stop [late again!] hahha sheren! y u everytime olso late??!? huh?? hahha anyway after tt met some friends at bonna vista mrt hahha then went jurong met some more friends then go to the like wet park thingy which was quite fun! hahha wha we were like a group of 8 er smt? COOL hahha but TWO people didnt make it -.- brandon n hahha someone. den nvm still fun! go to lazy river whaaa its so SOsoSoso damn lazy mann! hahha COOL hahha went on some watear slides n stuff hahha, oh then i left early with ariff n amar cause hiyo tmr got my flight at 7am goto wake up bout 3am to get ready n cab come at 4.30am whaaawhaaawhaaa sianzzzz mann! hahha anyway this is probally the last post i will b puttin up fer now cause im off to america! hahha oh may i metion that im damn fuckin pissed with my damn F*ing mom right now cause i SOOO tatally wanted this bag n she said "'If somehow u get that bag , i would not allow u to use it fer sch." Is that soooOOSSOOOO fucked up er whad??? fuck la ~!!! n sommore im not feelin absolutly great cause of the sun n water today... weLL tmr my flight is 32 hours to japan then bout what 12 hours? to america? whhaaa sianz mann shixxt...hahha i dunno whether im lookin forward to this at ALL. [at least i can see my uncle!!!(: HIII UNCLE RIC!!! (:] hahha i loove my uncle(: hes the best hes so nice (: hahha cant wait to see him! hahha catch ya all later next year!!! [be coming bac on the 28th dec i think] i wonder if i will come back with an america accent?? COOL hahha doubt so though cause im alr so influenced by sigaporean coulture!!! hahha hahha hahahahahahah hahaHAHAHAahaha

the influence is so great on you,
that i can actually see that you dont care anymore...
y? whats the harm?-i dont see it...
Can anybody tell me?
cause i would like to understand.what im doing wrong.
may i shed my tears for you?
Cause of the influence i have lost something i cheerish most in my heart,
-friendship.

so i will leave you hanging here folks!!! hahha
-[MeLL](:

2006-11-29T23:47:00.000-08:00

hmmm...now after readin some stuff...im so excited to go to the U.S !!! ~WOOO hahha will b goin so many places its so hectic! but at least i can actually touch geniue snow! n mann, is tt gonna will cool!hahha will b goin to the biggest disney land in the world!! hell yea n also might b goin divin in florida!!! hahha so cool~WOOO hahha im damn excited mann,hmmm oh as a christmas present ma familys givin me n ma sis a budget each n were gonna stop by in every shoppin centre n shop till we drop, wonder how tts gonna work out- hahha nvm its gonna be so cool ! hahha~ hahha also goin skin in canada ! hahha hahha omgggg will b goin,~~
1.)tokoyo[cause of flight]
2.)seattle
3.)Van cougver
4.)washinton
5.)California[The biggest disneyland in the world!!]
6.)Florida[go divin!! ~WOO]
7.)Canada[go sking!]
8.)n moreee placesss hectic!
hahha so b comin bac real late bout 28th dec i think omg so late mannn hmm..wonder if i can get those adiddas shoes n bag i've been dyin to have in the u.s??? kool hahha weLL, ONE of my friends keeps getting seriously mood swings,i dont even know y i put up wif his bull mann...hiyo weLL just letit go mel hahha ohhh wanted to go out wif him today but i said tt like 4pm its too late olready la how bout tmr and then his mood swingz jus had to kick in....irritatin mannn whaaa000zzz welll 2 more days folks then i will be outta stinkapore! hahha cool.so cya then!
syi-inng outt dudes n dudattes^ hahha peace la-
[MeLL](:
hes yours

2006-11-29T02:41:00.001-08:00

HoLeUp^ Wiad a Minate, boy y ar yah Trippinn liyke dhat?
Cauze yah thixk aif ure LoOkin sO fly,
u'll get Me juezt liyke dhat?
Nnoo Wayy G.

hahha kk WeLLL cr-aP oonly got 3 days left whazaaa00000000.....): hahha gonna mizz all my friends! hahha dayymmnnnn cant believe fer one whole month mann hahha hmmmm..... hahha WeLL right noww im watchin "take the Lead'' hey its nice(: hahha i think im gonna end hera. hahha peace hahha.

signing off-[MeLL](:

2006-11-29T02:41:00.000-08:00

2006-11-27T05:10:00.000-08:00

hey guys!!!! im back from indo!!! hahha n now i only hav 4 days left till i go to america n canada n stuff fer a whole freakin month!!!! Whhooaaaaaa000000000 ): must dance n spend time with my friends fast!!!!

2006-11-22T05:55:00.000-08:00

hahaha im blogging twice today ppl!!!! cause im so god damn bored -.- hahahahah funny mann hahaha. ok weLL, hahah yeaterday went out with sheren to go fro an interveiw fer smt then haha so bored we were at far east then walk walk everywhere then i finally bought bubble tea !!!! YAY!!!! (: hahaha bubble(: hahaha ok then weLL wanted to go plaza sing then uhhhh... dun want aee then go to the grand cathay hahaha cause wanted to watch a movie hahaha weLL then wondering whad movie we were to watch n sheren wanted to watch----- " COLIC " hahahahaah lame show! i didnt like it mannnn ggaawwwdddd dun watch it! hahaha some really really far out gross scences hahah n sheren made me go buy the movie tix! colic is an NC16 movie n i got away with it mann! haha cooLL!!! i look 16 ~WOoo cooLLL hahaha n hmmm...sleept at 5am+ yastaday eapp(: hahah in the middle of the night went holland V. hahah cause wanted to top up ma card ahhaha n Y i use prepaid??? i hav no idea mann hahah...then came home went on the com and talked to ppl. weLL hmm.. my mother dearest came bac today ): !!!!! CRrrrrr-APp. n sommore shes forcing me to go to indo tmr!!! AHHHH!!!! i shitty dun wanna go!!!!!!!!!! cause then i would come bac on mon then only got 4 more days b4 going away fer one WHOLE MONTH! far far far [super] far far faraway.....uhhhhhh im so sad): must spend more time with friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!

signing out-[MeLL](:

2006-11-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

wha000 i think its finaLLy OvER!!! dunno whether it should b right this way..haahha whad am i thinking! ~i dunnooo...hmmm...happier? i dunno but now i jus feel like smt is very seriously wrong hmmm smt jusezt missin? wth i dunno00...hmmmm...
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2006-11-20T05:34:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I see
Why the hell it means so much to me

signing off-[MeLL](:
~im so sorry...

2006-11-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

hey imm sooo sadd.... ppl im terribly SORRY cause i cant reply ur messages): my phone's outta cashh): SOOOO SOOOORRRYYY i feel terrible):
imm SOOOO sorry ppl can u wait untill tuesday er smt 1st? hah ha laxlaxlax(:

2006-11-14T00:31:00.000-08:00

GOOGLE SEARCH:
hip hop dance competitons nov 2006
results? none that satifiy me.

One day i might testify, looking very fly, cause b4 the day i die, i wanna touch the sky.

signing off-[MeLL](;

2006-11-13T01:57:00.000-08:00

hah ha gt a nw tagboard people!!! hah ha nnnnn' once agiain i have to say gd people welcome! bad people fuk off wunt ya? hah ha enjoy!!! X) hah ha ok ok hhhmmmm...whad has been happening??? weLLLL...hmmmm been thinking lately , abt a hell lotta thingz yea tthats all.hah ha hmmm im super bored ryite now ...... hmmm... guess i'll end here hah ha adiyost! crap theres netball tmr! crap...crap...crap... one day i might actually TestiFy, looking very fly,cause b4 the day i die im gonna touch the sky.

[my mind keeps going round n round]
[playing games on me]
[making me think whad the hell is happening?]
[i wish it would stop kidding me]
[y bout u? among everything]
[thats my biggest matter]
[hmmm.....juezt *confused*]

been think lately....****
signing off ~MeLL

2006-11-10T23:15:00.000-08:00

hello people!!! hhahah supp?? this is so COOL okay!!! hahahha im blogging from the inside of the newly-opened grand cathay!!! hahahaha okay well im here with clara right now, so dreched wet by the rain. myyy gooooddd it feels so sucky man! hahha okay nnnn we r gonna watch " step up" !!!! ~WOOOOO FINALLLY!!!! WOOOOO~~!!!! so happy!!!! yay yay yay!!! dance dance dance!!! WOOO~!!!! hahahha i think i will end here hahaha happy hoildays!!! (:

signing off-MeL
-still sick):

2006-11-10T04:55:00.000-08:00

hmmmm...tsk* tsk* tsk....i want that B.E.A.T.I fuLL bag!!! hah ha will b leaving singapore on the 2nd dec whaaaa.... quite happy...then again hmmm... maybe not...hahaah n next years sec 2 goddd actually quite looking forward to it (: hhaahaahah dunno y hmmm maybe thinking bout talentime aggain(: hahhaah ahhh stuck in singapore bored like shit heehee(: whaaa im sick of tution sick of events sick of going out sick of talking on the phone,sick of netball,sick of some of my friends sick of everything man....i dunno what to do whawhawha so sick oh ya n I AM SICK!!!! running a fever,runny nose,cold,sore throat,having a cough..boy this sux big time man ~WOOO. yuky i hate this ...daymnn.....hmmmm.....im soo booooorrreeeedddd but heyy!!!! i wanna watch step up!!! YAY hahaha(:

2006-11-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

hey -----, i really don't know what to say anymore, i wasn't the one who said all that, it really was not me. your reaction to that was wow...but i guess expected. at least i tried to make u understand...but i wouldn't write your name on my blog...hey,but i can't cry over spilled milk. there are some things that u just don't know and would never come to understand, thats why i'm not gonna fuss about it. and if you don't want me to see or speak to ur one beloved again -wish granted. let's end this. i understand that he's your boyfriend and u would never believe if i said that i did those things only out of friendship.

and weLL NO, i do not feel that way bout love but maybe my friend does.cause love is jus a magical feeling people get which can make or break ya heart. n so for my case,everythings broken...i have to try2 understand n give everything up.

n from ur position,i give u all the right to be angry with me:hate me to the core.n i noe from ur view even if i tried to explian,they would just all be excuses to u...so i dont see whads the use in explaining anymore.its alright if u hate me,i dont blame u neither do i hate u,cause i understand n would feel the same way.n i dont wanna start a bitch fight so....since ure older,wiser n ure my senior,i only can do one thing n thats to listen.ok well now im gonna listen,n ask,whad do u want me to do? if u dont think its good,or u dont like me being friends with ur guy,then fine,i will take it n will stop i guess...cause thats the only thing i can do...so its all up to u, whad do u want me to do?

the grey colours of the sky

another whole friendship wasted away...
signing off~
MeL

2006-11-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

WOW thats hArSh
HMMMM.....KIDO HUH? well ure not so mature yourself huh? Y DO U EVEN let other ppl say what u wanna say?HHHMMM?
i would feel bad if i were u as i would feel that my sis wus USING ME to say waed the hell she wanted to say. hmmm ....n u said tt u hated those type of girlfriends who like domenated themselves over the guys? control freaks? u hate tt right? so dont become one. cause in my shoes u R like a bit trying to control his life by controling his circle of friends. N Y DO U BOTH ONLY PICK ON ME??? HE HAS other friends tt r girls too right? SO Y THEN? ONLY ME? huuuhhhh? tt i want answered. immediately.n i thought that u trusted him. trusted him alot, to know tt he would never be bad to u.cause he loves u a lot.

ohhh my friend wanted to tell u whats below fer so long... n i swear i did not write this crap cause im nt so this bad n i dun have so much experience.....SORRY

[censored]

ok i didnt want 2 put tt down at all....i swear i didnt write tt cause im not so experienced n smart mann ohma my friend is way mean.... god n if i were to erase what ma fren wrote then she would glady smack me on the back of ma head she said.im SORRYYYY,,,,... but she would really kick ma ass if i took it down..

2006-11-03T04:15:00.000-08:00

Lady SoVerEign-[yea she rocks man!]
So everybody's entitled to opinions,
I open my mouth and sh** I got millions.
Go on then, come on support,
I'm English, try and deport me.

Now I dont really give a....Ugh!
I'm late for my shepherd's pie
Like a high maintenance chick missin' her diamonds.

Love me or hate me, its still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then Thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!

here er dea lyrics yea,

wha kks,heres ma next ans; to ya.(below)

hhhmmm...every1 is entiled to their own opinions...sooo hmmm... i dunno whether to take tt as good or bad , insult or not insult..hhhmmm...i dunno....ok well here i have to say...i cant not tell u so hhmmm,...here....
ok n nah i dont consider u that type though...every relationship needs to have trust yea? if im ntwrong...so jus thought tt u would b vry sure tt he was ures, so i didnt think tt u would need to go through worrying er anything cause i thought u knew he was urs n i know tt too....since b4 ummm yaya i already knew that both of u gt bac 2gthear,but wow i would never imagine interferring cause im so not though type of ppl (n i hate those type man they r suckerz yea)
but i thought no harm in being friends with him could maybe affect so much? hmmm weLL sorry.so yea. but sometimes i accidentally put u outta mind well which was hell wrong yea sorry but time 2 time of cause i thought bout u, i had too,duh.hmmm...n u could ask all my friends i jus tried to let everything go cause i believed tt u were a good person n i believed as the one he 1st fell for [b 4tunate(: ] hahah he was sure to be in good hands i believe . so yea there itiz hahaha. n as fer the mocking , continue,n go ahead weLL its only naturall haha what can i do?

but jus please u also have to understand me as i cant possibly cage my whole heart n try to control something uncontrollable over with the mind. its just not possible, n even if i wanted too. no cage is tt strong. n i think u know tt. weLL hahha were jus cool friends n nothing more so dun fret! cause i still know tt hes ures hahah.

2006-11-02T07:46:00.000-08:00

Love er hate me, its still an obbession,
Love me er hate me that is the Question
If you Love me, Thank you,
If you Hate me,then Fuck you.

hhahaahahah.end.hahahaha.
things r going whacked nowadays.n fuk my P-sch princibel hahhaha.

signing off-MeL

2006-10-31T08:08:00.000-08:00

hah ha ha NICE(:
today was super nice(: man. hahah this in the super early morning till late at night it was jus all super(: hahahah

-if ure talking to me this is my answer.-

my ans: hahha im not.i only treat him as a cool friend,n i only want the best fer all my friends. please dont misunderstand, n the best for him is to make him happy which is by being with u. hahah im fine with it. as long as hes happy with u. cause hes ures. please treat him weLL, n dont break his heart cause i wouldnt want him to be sad): haha so i really hope u both have a long nice relationship cause as i said i only wish fer the best fer all my friends hahah. jus promise me that u would make my cool friend happy(: hahah so peace fer now.hahha. oh , n this is not any sort of hate letter wadever . dont misunderstand.i jus wanna get this clear with ya. oh n lastly good luck feryer exams yea? hah ha do good n make ur mum proud. hah ha

hmmm..night(: everyone hahah letmme dance hahaha

2006-10-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

i feel that everything i do is Wrong.
some1 please save me from this MiserY.

-unhappy friends,unhappy family....i cant take it anymore.when i try to help, i jus make scars. everything i do feels like it burns.i hate it.but where did i go wrong?

-u dont need me anymore? FINE.
-i didnt believe my friends about u.so i tried to help u become i better person.if u dont heed my advice, u will stay ur fucking self.all i did was try to help.n now u blame me? for something i didnt even do? THEY ARE RIGHT, U ARE HOPELESS.i dun wanna bother over u anymore,its just a waste of my time.

-now i understand.
-& i wont cry over spilt milk.

2006-10-29T07:21:00.000-08:00

AN INSANE RECOUNT
hah ha yastadae was lyke WOWOW! let me start this fuking insane TRUE crazy story of ma life. hahah
-she started shouting,complaining n nagging lyke she always did, except this time she started raising her voice.
-inside of mw burned, i could not take it anymore. so i shouted bac n stood up to ma own mumther dearest.
"i hate u! i wish i had a different mother! u suck! y do i have to be SO SPECAIL n different frm the rest of my friends?!"
-"then y dun u jus runaway?"
i ran into my room n slammed the door shut,with quickly locking it.my mom came after n banged my door, "MELINA! OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!!!!" she demanded""NO!!!"" i screamed.""IF U LEAVE URE ROOM, ITS MINE" she said. left in my room,crying, depressed n sooo doowwwnnn.wad the hell was i supposed to do? i alr made plans to go out today.with my good friend n another specail person.fcuk.i didnt noe what to do.then i decided.i didnt care anymore.i couldnt live n bare with all the fcuked up shit anymore.at tt moment i could feelL anymore.all i felt was pain n hurt.i whipped my phone n started finding comfort frm 3 of my great friends(: zad told me to meet him at dawson so i quickly changed grabed ma stuff in a bag, n i was about to jump outta my window onto the ground (my house is on the 2nd floor) when i realised i had no shoes man.GOD! Y DO MY shoes have to be in the living room? fine so i quickkly sneeked out of the house, when i grabed my shoes my sis spotted me.can i jus say tt i love my sis? (: hah ha she asked me where i was going.so i said :"mom asked me to runaway? so fine." then i left to the world . went to meet up wif zad n he made me feel betta(: hahah thanks zad! thankz a lot! hahah so we were in dawson fer lyk till 3.30 den we decided that we wanted to go far east as he wante to see some bapesters hahah stupid shoes! so ex. yet quite stylo i have to say!!! hahah..ohh but while leaving dawson my cool friend texted tt he could not make it.so i was sad, hell yea.hahha but nvm.
-so me n zad went ard far east fer like super long till 6. liddat hahha so the my cool fren called zad telling callin him to meet at plaza sing at 7.30-n i was happy but wait 1st.7.30 wow i thought tts late man.but then again, im alr in shit by sneeking outta the house so might as well get into seeper shit right? hahah so after tt zad went round taking pics with halloween ppl hahah it was funny man! hahaha okkk then went to plaza sing n messed at a shopping centre thingy then ya then went to go buy some ice cream frm "the icecream man" hahha kk thne went taxi stand loads off peepz there then zad started dancing man! hahahah kk. then met up with (: then went to go decide whad to buy,to make up wif.ya ya so we looked around everywhere n finally found this nice hmmm....cake? haha kk.ya then it was like 8.50pm thenzad felt tt he wanted some cheese.n i was like whad the? haha then we went to the top floor to buy some cheese then went outta plaza sing.hah ha then (: had some time to spare so they both sent me to the bus stop then yea i went home. then haha the crazy part...
-went to the 2nd story staircase.called over the railing my sis's name.then she came to her balcony.wait.1st let me praise this brillant plan i came up with in a second. so i told her to throw me a towel n my swimsuit. so i went downstairs at the toilet to change into my swimsuit n took all my clothes n packed it into my bag then i went back up to the staircase n threw my clothes over to my sis. then i tried to throw my bag over to her but waittt hmmm... it was to heavy. so she went back into her room n cam out wif a rope-made outta her gothic chains n spikes n belts all linked together then she lowered in down i attached my bag to in n she pulled it back up.vaw la! a perfect plan.since my mom thought i was still sleeping the whole while. so i got wet into the swimming pool n went bac into the house my mom saw me it was like 10.30 but this was normal cause i usaully go swimming late.hahahah i got away with the whole day(: amazing huh? hahahah

what a day.
sadness n greif can be cured,
by comfort frm ur frineds,
they are always there,
treasure them(:

2006-10-26T21:24:00.000-07:00

THE FREAKING LAST DAY!!!!!!!! -went to school on graudation day n stayed there fer 6 hours+ man!!! ma GOD!!!!!! ARGH!!!! the last day of the sec 4's n 5's!!!!!!! im SSOOOOO gonna miss them cause the sec 3's next this year who r gonna take over the school all i can say is -"there proud asses will get kicked some day"-i hope hah ha jkjkjkjkjkjkjk hah ha hey!!!! im so left distorted man.... im gonna greif lyke everyday!!! ARRGGGHHHH im sSSSSOOO sad,,...bye everybody,,....my friends and super-cool great friends... all i do is wish u all the best whether ya going JC, POLY er ITE... im gonna miss ya all sooo much!!! n best of luck fer all ure dancing (: u noe who u r (: hah ha but hey!!! hopefully will still keep in touch yea? hah ha ha ha if only we could see u all in sec 5 (: hah ha ha dreams usually fail hah ah ha but hey!!! should look onda bright side of life (: hah ha . see u in the esplanade hah ha need help on next years talentime!!! too kickass hah ha wif both of ure help (: hah ha thankz (: we will miss u guys (: nhopedulikedit(:

2006-10-24T04:12:00.000-07:00

COOLFRIENDZ(:
-hah ha nice(: hah ha. feeling loads betta hah ha;cause of some reasons hah ha weLL, this is the last week of the sec 4's staying.MY GOD!!! so many people are so sad ): hah ha weLL fer me i have my mixed feelings. as some of the sec 4's are my friends! and they will be leaving!!! ): im so sad !!! hah ha - whawhawha better go practice fer the competti.omg hah ha so scary...whawhawha where ta practice?-
esplanade?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
sheren HHHHHHOOOOOOWWWWWW????-hah ha

sometimes fate is in my hands,
only for me to control it,
it only depends whether i can handle the on coming,
as it is a very powerful item,
weLL,
i can't.
HOW COULD I? have burned paradise?
HOW COULD I? u were never mine.
So don't cry to me.If you loved me,You would be here with me.Don't lie to me,Just get your things.I've made up your mind.

2006-10-21T08:56:00.000-07:00

FEELING BETTA(:-theres light in the world agian(:
knowing that talentime is a bumber fer us , i dun giva shit anymore(: cause i know that we are better (: instead lets tryta find a semi-compettion outta school fer the heck of it! hah ha ha . should gain more experirence man!!! oh whad olso made me feel more cheery was some of izzad's music man! ha ha ha . NICE(: zad , real nice (:

hah ha-[Mel] (;

2006-10-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

hope is jus a minor thing in the world only knowing that it will be crushed by the biggest impact, cause it is usually linked to love. which god usually never gives u a chance to impress

i would give up my 2nd position in class and drop to the 15th to have this, or get it. worked our asses off......forrrwhhhaaaaaddddddd ??? for nothing- nothing at aalll.... i just guess were no t good enough.... maybe ours was horrible? did the moves suck? how did we look? we messed it up- everything. loss . they got it. no hope. tired everything. it has to pass. i cant bear it. the last year here. i wanted to do something specail. something to impress to be blown away. i just guess maybe not. maybe we actually sucked, down to everything. we can never beat them, whad the hell were we thinking huh ??? bloddy assholeing hopes.... they get high only knowing that they would be crushed. and u would know that u actually failed-left out in the dark. everything, done. the only chance to prove everything to turn it int o right. i guess it jus was so wrong. right from the start. i hate it. i dunno whad to do. theee laasssttt year..... did we really crump? hah ha- i cant smile, it just seems lyk a crimeee....n worse, the whole dam bloddy school knows about it..... every1 coming up to our crewmates...asking..."i heard u didnt make it..." then how? now everybody is gonna think our dance is going to be worse than that shit.

-embarrassed
-feeling down
-totally pathetic
-not worth my time
-ashamed
-FAILure........

so from all this it definately has taught me a lesson...

it doesnt matter how much effort u put in,
people are never satified,
there is no hope in this world,
nothing ever works out,
we never win,
no matter how hard,
we never,
FAILure is immpossible to beat.
u never can escape it...
so y even try???....

2006-10-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we totally screwed up!!!! whad could be worse? we cramped and forgott lots of moves n timing all diff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE FLUNKED.FAILED.ITSOVER.EVERYTHING.allthehardwork.allthepain.allthecreativity.WASTED.sowasted. it was so scary like the judges were aAAAAAAAAAAAAAA:LLLLLLLLLLLLl ard us!!!!!!! reason that we could screw up!!!!!!!1 fuck lah!!!! when i totally forgot to do THIS move i said "fuck" OMG!!!! i said it twice on the dancefloor infront of the judges!!!! n we had no cd no costume n most important, NO ENERGY. we already wiped oursleves out like shit.heehee. den when they asked us for a name, thought of it on the spot n suddenly said "mixed blood" HOLY CRAP! fcuk lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh whad to do? so many brillant moves wasted............ sommore its .lyk.....nvm.............................AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHH!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but at least we made new friends n had loads of fun(:

2006-10-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

wha wha wha !!! talentime is on wed n we are not even 1 thrid through the dance!!! we have one last day to practice for the audi n that is tmr!!!! ahhhhh heeeellllppppp!!!! 2/3 the dance in a single day? with perfect timing n moves done correctly? even time n skill to "dress" ? n "impress" ? I duNO!! im gonna go crazy!!!! i really want this, but is it possible? we shall prove the "otherz" hah ha i think ONE of my friend noes what im talking bout, :that we r better! that this years sec 1 batch is super stylo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

12 sraight hours of dancing!!!! OMGGG my body is like jelly liddat!!! OWWW!!!! hah ha but its worth it! hhah ha

signing off - MeL

2006-10-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey!!! hyeeee .... ;;;; t6oda9 n ya5t3rday ??? lots of dramaaa mannnnnn.... ohhhh goddddd i had a kinda huge fight wif my mommmmmm whooaaaa whawhawha i didnt lyk it ; lotsa drama n tears shed by meee whoawhoawhoa, until i say until my mom dunno whad to say untill she queit ... y??? ... cause she kkinda guilltyyyy of whad i said .. ok ok i dun wanna say bout the fight anymore cause it was bad n i dun wanna relive the moment by saying it.ok sooo whad to write??? ok today was ok i guess. valley(hah ha! valley!!!), sherry n me went 2 watch this movie called "Rob-b-Hood" hah ha! funny sia! den sheren wasted my hp $$$!!!! by sms-ing who??? of caus....who else??? hah ha. kkyes im bored..... nothing to do wha.....borreeeeddddd do u ppl know tt i hate to be bored??? haaaaahhhghh...cnt i really dont lyk it....

oh ya one more thing, if u dont think i noe, WELL,
I DO.

FEEL HAPPY,(:
FEEL SAD,):
WATEVER YOU DO,
JUST DONT CRACK-
tresure ur family n friends,
they are all u got.

2006-10-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

hhhhyyyyyyyyeeeeeee people!!!! (: finally exams are over..... my god...... art exam today was killer!!!!! wowow i felt sick to my stomach during the exam cause i was very very nervous that i would not have enough time to complete my artwork; which was a dragon! hah ha. last night i was up till 3.30 am late trying to finish my art! sheren was with me at my house we both did our art together, den we all do our art untill we both cry cause we dont wanna do anymore hahha jus too tired already n wan 2 sleep also cannot. ): so busy yesterday go home do art untill late den no time to practice dance): wtf man i was lyk ........its such a waste of time n i didnt even wanna go to school today cause i knew that therr was nothing to look forward to in school ): espeically my good friend (: who buys iceappleteas(: hah ha. wha wha wha myass dam pain from dance class wha wha wha...ouch* hah ha. trying to learn new moves. hah ha yeasterdae dance class den she,me n val we all lyk ring to doorbell to da studio den we wait there dam long also no answer den we realised that we were at the back door!!! whad losers rite??? hah ha. but there was this like great small swimming pool ther tt looked cool (: we wanted to go swimming! were planning too! hah ha our plans tmr wild wild wet cancelled!!! cause its under repair!!! wha so sad ): at least now exams are over!!!! got time to practice DANCE!!!! so happy!!!! (: hah ha . so sad this whole week hes not coming to school !!!! im so sad!!!! ): hope his indo night goes well (:
today is dam whad aaee!!! i dont lyk aee!!! hah ha- anyway after exam after school we took about 2 murdering hours to decide where we wanted to go.maybe to VIVO maybe to WESTCOAST maybe to BOWLINg or SWIMMING or KAP. we were lyk wtf man we were soooo bored!!! then in the end we decided to stay in school. hah ha... den we the crew was hungry. den we took 30mins to decide whad to eat-maybe PIZZA mayb KFC mayb MAC ;ordering in school. den in the end we decided to eat in school! hah ha we are such losers hah ha i wanted to cry i was so bored hah ha! i was telling valley that 1 week before exams i was not panicked at all den during exams i didnt give a shit i treated it as any normal day it didnt feel lyl exams still havnt panicked yet, den now Aafer exams i panick so much!!! cause i was so bored n got nothing to do!!! hah ha so i panicked!!! hah ha.she argree with me. hah ha

time to stop,
relax,
n get up n dance!!!
hah ha- enjoy ur lyfe, u got it n its ures, take it easy n luv ur loves!
LOVINEVERYSECONDOFTHATSIGHT(:

2006-10-06T03:44:00.000-07:00

TOday was lyk so great man! okie let me start frm the beginning dudes.okkk i woke up~ hahahaha! not so beginning ah! ok i was aa bit late fer school den today got math paper 2 wha sianz man i dam freaking scared ah, cause if i dun get 40+ fer this paper 2 i noe that i sure fail maths already... n i was lyk holy SHxIT cause i now i no hope already gooddd!!! but i tell u the paper was lyk dayym freaking easy! to my wonderfull surpprise!!! then i was looking round the canteen but to no avail ): he no paper today!!! -a fren told me! )))::: i was so saddd): NVM!today was so fun! to kill time we all went bugis den thinking what ta buy fer the dance especically serching for tt hat! (: tt B-E-T-FULL! hat!!! n den we all go watch movie! double date sia- hah ha ! exceapt for me n sheren so extra ! hah ha! but so fun! neverless we all were laughing our asses off when the crew go watched the movie "SUCOB"-the wedding curse-tt moive totally sucked dudes! dun watch it! (: hah ha ok ok i got some pics for u alll! hah ha! enjoy!!!

hahaha!!! wowow!!! vally n tj sitting in a movie-H-O-L-D-I-N-G H-A-N-D-S~first comes marriage-----wadeva shixxit lah!!! hah ha ---sooo shhhheeeewwwttttt!!!

hahahaha! me n sherrys feets on the cinema chairs dude!!! hah ha we re clapping them!! hahaha!

oh tis was me and the clothes model in bugis!! its hand gesture was "fcuk u man"-so evill..tsk*tsk* oh i was laughing my ass offf when i saw tt !! haha ha oh the super STYLO bus i went in man1!!! it was so cool!!!oh n finnalllly!!!! this is MY APPLE TEA(: which won 1st place!!! in a u could say compettion on which smily laughing face was nicer i had with a good fren(: on msn ! this pic won it!

the super STYLO 165 bus man!!! double decker sommore u know!!??
oh one more thing when thatr happened today that almost made me vomit
!!!!! the crew was lytk on the bus to bugis then there wwass this guyyyyy.. who was like kkinda super fat.n guess what???????

....

......

.........-he farted!

IT B LEW US AWAY~~~~!!! GAWDD!!!! IT WAS THE SMELLYIEST THING EVER!!! we all were suffercateing!!!!! n val took out her deoderant n was lykk s[raying it all over the bus!! i mean eEEEEEWWWWW!!!! i=thats disgusting!!!! n sheren was lyk the closest one to that "EEEWWW guy" and she was lyk " please god dun let him fart againn......" and guuessss what happennneed....

...

..........

................we all heard an " OH SHIT" frm sheren n we all knew whatg wwass coming n ran outta the bus! hahahahhahahahahhahahaa

AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHH WOWOWOW HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA? it was the funnesit day MAN!!!! AHHAHAHAHAZAHAHA i cant stop laughing!!! HAHAHAHAH----

signing off - mel(exam almost over!! WOO~!!!)

2006-10-03T02:35:00.000-07:00

TODAY~
SHITMAN! u all noe that the math paper today was lyk WOWOW! i could do it man! seriously! i left lyk a totally 8 QUEASTIONS BLANK DUDE! surefail math sia.....die.oh but the science paper today was also lyk WOWOW as i could do everything man! it was lyk so dam easy i could have jus stared n laughed! hah ha ha ha hah ha ha hah -except for 1 chem q the perodick[hah ha! dick! hah ha! i noe val u luv it man!] table i totally fergot! ahhh nvm.but the rest of the paper was a breezzzzz. oh i jus heard something dam fuking shocking today i swear i could hav...aeee nvm (: hah ha. ok so it was lkyk i was doing smt than [THIS PERSON] jus laughed man! lyk this person has any right to laugh!!! comooooonn she lyk kinnda worse than me n this person laughs! lyk shit. fuuuuuuukkkcccaaaaa aiya nvm.hah ha!okie this morening i felt lykl missing the 186 bus. so idid. than i took another 2 buses tt made me almost late fer school n guess who i sawww!!!!!!! happy man!me! but i said hi he never see then his best friend saw den say but i gone already. then during the 1 HOUR! break! when every1 else go up already cause de paper starting olready...i still downstairs sia. then he said hi!!! WOWOW that made my day (: butttttttt thhhannnn. i said hi back than i forced myself to tear my gaze away...started running cause late fer paper already ... then i slliiippppppeedddd i [fell] n sssslliiiiddeeeeeeeedddddddddd/ fukka sia. i fell*! RIGHT infront of sommebodyyy...!!!!! arrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh soooooooooooooooooooo {PAI SEH!}ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!-today was a dam fukkking bitch of a day! hahah! but a good one as welLL(:
WELL!!! OFF TO DANCE Again! CAUSEW\ I GOT MOTIVATION BABY!
-he not joining talentime already):

not giving up, not looking away,n jus stayin friends.(: is enough.

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otherthanthatiknowthatUareso[perfect]inmyeyes.iknowthatulovehernwerejusfriends.animreally[really][happy]tojusbefriendswifua[hi]hereandthereisjus[perfect]forme.causeihopethatunher loveeachotherasmuchasidoforucauseionlywantutobe[happy]naslongasiknowicanseeufortherestof thisyearandmakeatfoolofmyselflikeididtodayinfrontofubutonethingiknowisidunfeelbadatall.causei knowthatu[are]everythingieverwantedniluvusomuchuntilllyk[wowow]uwouldnevernoethe feelingigetwheniseeusmileatme.thefeeling....itsjussospecailuntilidunnoehowtosayliddat.ireallyreally butimsogladatleastwerefriends.butuwouldstillnevernoethefellingbuti[WILL]stayhappy(:causei knowurehappy(:!0\/3u ohnonemorething.Nimnothurt.causeialreadynoethatimluckyjustobe friendswifu[nustayhappy](:!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!uaresoooooooooooooooofinein myeyes. i love u so much i love u sososo much.ialreadysaidsorrytoubutushouldalsonoettwheather[sheknowsabtit]itsnotmyfault.ialreadysaidsorry.

U are the finest guy in my eyes. i already said a countless of sorrysnimstillsosorry.buutttimsogladwerefriends!!!!!(:nthatmakemedamfukkkainhappy(:
I CANTHLEPLOVINU2NIGHT

2006-09-29T03:16:00.000-07:00

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just dance dudes! n dude^ates! ~just dance as if no ones there.

okie today there just a compo paper n ommmmggggg i wrote about that i killed my father. cool man! it was a cool compo! totally rockin wif vocabs! i guess it was okie! i would write more but im off to go danc3e!!! ~ beh bye !!!

2006-09-27T04:22:00.000-07:00

hiya people! okie so far i had ma oral yastadae!!!! ommmggggg... OMMGGG....oommgggg... but i was feeling kinda luck y on tt day (: hah ha.kk.on with the story... b4 oral i was lyk in the classroom waiting for my tuurrnnnn...then i pumped up ma mp3 volume up ^^^^^^^ then i couldnt help it but satrted dancing around the klazz! hah ha! so fun!!! (: anyway ! i was moti vated 2 dance!! ; all cause of SOMEBODY :D okie then ppl were giving me vry werid n strange looks. hah ha. then when i went fer oral my examiner was mr .ozzi man! cool! he said i was vain btw. . . i dun lyk tt . . . cause for the convo he asked " would u ever consider a career as a stage performer or actor?" -stm liddat.then i was talking n talking then came the part i was ranting on abt actingg..." of course i would lyk to act!!! in da movies!! so i can see my bueatifull face in the movies!!! n on tv!! (: " n then i laughed. then he said i was vain-.- i didnt lyk tt! i was an angry person okie! hah ha (; but of course he was jus joking. the only part i am scared abput my oral marks is tt he will deduct A LOT of marks cause i think tt i was too relaxed already. hah ha.i didnt notice of course. my friends told me. then when i kinda think about it ...yeeeaaaa they wwere right!!! i was lyk sitting lyk nobodys business n shakeing my legs like i didnt care ! hah ha! i feel bad now!!! hah ha (: oh they also said i was lyk laughing as well n so was mr. ozzi man! hah ha okie yea ...

okay today!!!! i got a really reallly REALLY bad urge to drink {seasons}APPLE ICE TEA(: todae . hah ha! i drank 3 packets. hah ha okie yeah... during recess i found out a new dance move!~WOOOO~ man, was i freaking happy! (: okie then mr wan scolded me lyk shit today. wah lau way! then he stare at me lyuk what u know! n i stare att himmm baccc.... then afterwards andy told me we both vry scary he stare at me lyk shit then i stare back at him with loathe in my eyes man!!!! that was so cool!!! i didnt noe actually then ppl started asking me " MEL ,R U OK?" hah ha! i started laughing man!...hah ha ..kkkkk tts all fer today. (:

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signing off -/\/\3~

2006-09-23T03:25:00.000-07:00

i only got one thing to say...
MURTABAK ISA BITCH!!!
hah ha. and me & val is gonna eat that bitch agian!!! hah ha! OH!! rmb faithfull readers! THERE ARE evil spiders luking everywhere...keep ur EYES open . (n rmb to buy a deoderant spray n lighter!) u can never be too carefulllllLLLLllll.......

signing out mel (:

i will burn all the papers that i wrote it on, i will srub my hand till it bleeds, to get it off, i would do anything to make it stopp. but sometimes it jus pains me inside, to know that everytime you walk by, i see her by urside. altough sometimes it just kills me to know, i know that ur with her, but ure happy, and thats just enough for me, to live my life on. but im sorry, i still cant stopp, loving u the way i do. . .. but im glad were friends (: -cause if we wer'nt i would'nt know what to do.
~2731=1=^9

2006-09-21T03:54:00.000-07:00

ure the light of my life,
ure my star in the darkest of nights,
to the most deadliest view,
i wish u were mine,
but u would never be,
and i have to live life on,
without u,
at least u r happy,
so that makes me too.
~2731=1=^39

A BIG THANKZ 2 those beautifull people who gang-raped me tt day! thanks shu! for holding my arms down! thanks PL! for hold my another arm down! N A BIG THANKS 2 SHEREN! for opeing all my ... ahem...ahem... u evil ppl!...... hah ha! i will get u back sommday! ohhhh!!!! n u ppl will get it twice as worse as me man!
its so cool to make eddie jealous baby! ~WOOO~hah ha . no lah im not so evil. hah ha. ouuhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY!!!! ,,,,, we went to the gurls toilet to kill a huge bloody-ass spider ! baby! hah ha. the day b4 me n sheren went out to buy a nice-smelling spray (very flammable :caution!) and a lighter!!! hah ha! we tryed to kill the spider with the burning flames of doooommmmm!!! hah ha. tt was so funn! what a scary spider! (EEEWWWWWwww) hah ha but it survived!!! -to our misfortune......nvm.then after school we went to a diff gurls toilet at the canteen and roasted some poor ants!!! muaahahahah! tt was so cool! -but i feel sry for them...
nvm! (;
it was fun.

i will burn all the papers that i wrote it on,
i will srub my hand till it bleeds, to get it off,
i would do anything to make it stopp.
but sometimes it jus pains me inside,
to know that everytime you walk by,
i see her by urside.

altough sometimes it just kills me to know,
i know that ur with her,
but ure happy,
and thats just enough for me,
to live my life on.
but im sorry,

i still cant stopp,
loving u the way i do.
.
..
but im glad were friends (:
-cause if we wer'nt i would'nt know what to do.
~2731=1=^9

2006-09-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

okie supp^ people!?!? examsss soooo near i could just lyk touch the papers already.........
.
.
.
and throw them in the trash!!!- hah ha
-i wish.....comeon teacherez keep pushinng us lyk shit in sckool! n all fer wat??? bloddy exams!!! *tisk*tisk......................im booooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd..... but i still dunno how they both know!!!!
COme ON!!!!! it wasnt obvisios at all though... ha ha as long as the *beautifull view* stays happy with his sweetheart i should be happy too! (: tts right. okay im bored nothing else to wrrittteee.......

he messaged me!!!!! i was so happy i was sreaming alll over the place!!!!!!!!!(details in the message r not to be told!) -but to me it was still gooooodddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!

SOMETIMES thingz take a turn 4 the worse or,
better(:-mel

2006-09-15T03:51:00.000-07:00

how do u know? i was so shocked wen u said it. and his best friend.my gosh.r u gonna tell him? but actually i did not give an ans , all i said was ''what do u think?'' its not a "yes" or "no" . but how do U both know??? i only told selected people my secret. well i guess maybe the sec 4 told. nvm. maybe its right he should know..... hmmmmm....

kkkk i was playing with vals hp today and i heard a person say something dam shocking tt i looked up^didnt think he knew!.!.!.! aiya who cares eventually tt would happen . okay today its lyk after school we went to the furthest satircase at the school and the gang and some other people were all discussing ghost stories...woooooo~ some were scary sia.... especally chu's one. my god. oh clara one was spooky too...ahhhhhhh scary man.then at least got ssome people walk up and down the stairs . . . so i guess it was ok. anywya it was so fun scary ourselves half ta death!!! ko0oilL man! !! ha ha. yea but what u said is true. i was wonderding abt that question. "where was he ah?" i olso dunno too bad ): ha ha

SUPP^ people... haha yastadae i had netball practice n i was lyk pushing maself " run" "run" "run!" ha ha. had to run 15 roundes-killer man. but what val said ha ha! i repeated what she said to me out loud , and i got motivation and sprinted a few rounds! ha ha it was so cool baby ! i didnt know tt smt lyk tt would work! ha ha. ok yea exams appoarching, crap man... not in the mood to study ! actually im not anyway haha.

SOMeTIMES we just depend on hope,
and leave fate to settle the rest,
when theres nothing we can do left.

chiillin off-mel

2006-09-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

im a sad person right now. i jest took a minute to read a schoolmate's blog, and i got dreadfullly sad..................................................
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great now i becoming lyk andy telling every1 tt im sad...........................
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it was so sad what he wrote on the blog, but it just shows that the beautifull view...or 1st best person in the world......(haha not U val or U sheren ha ha) u loosas are 2nd best ha ha (; so the person is actually a good person tthat would lyk to change for his own sweetheart.its vry sad 4 me actually. as i cant do anything at all!!!! and the beautiful view wont be at school anymore nxt yer.so im dreadfully sad. but i will move on.....................................................
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.........................could i move on?
.............would i even try?
.......is it worth it to hang on?
...................hoping something tt would never happen , would?
...........nothing would ever come out of it
............................so y even try?
...........would i give it all away?
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.no
.i will not
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-yea right.
if this situation is so hard to get into, and its vry rare and hard 4 me to get into the situtation, y give up? when i actually for once look forward to being at school, for hope to catch tt beautiful glimpse

SOMETHINGS are never meant 2 BE.

2006-09-05T03:03:00.000-07:00

yah yah, everything olso same same...aiya.......got nothing to write nothing to do..........i wish i was in school and the bell rung!!! school over!!!! then i go downstairs to canteen.... then juz stay there and admire the view* too bad my house doesnt have a beautiful view*...): ..... val, shere,ct u all noe what im thinking..ha ha...(;... cool man! im actually known as a fan on a persons blog!!! cool sia. first time (;...hhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmm mmm mm
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i so miss the view* nevermind! cool i will be going to sunway lagoon during this holi day! oh yesterdae i jus fought with my mom ... omg was i so dam fuking mad.... i tore the paper in my hand and crampled them tt was sooo000oo cool man!!! but the fight was totally uncool dudes...no no no....i mmmmmmmmmmmmmm bbbooorrreeedddd......vry bored....

signing our~mel
u will never know who u r,
until some1 finds it.

2006-08-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look you're never there
And every time I sleep you're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything
I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real I sense it now,
the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
And when I touch your hand It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe
You're everything I know that makes me believe I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see So tell me
Do you see me?

-Michelle Branch-Everywhere

~do u see me? do u even notice me? i might have actually fallen...
i hate it but i cant stop...
its addicting ... iits tearing me...
do i?
for u?
please nooo...
i hope not...
but im still confused...

2006-08-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

okie tt is actually syahidah's photo tts y got a lot of her.ha haiz but they r still pictures!!! (:

hey ppl!!!!!!!!!! omg !! omg!!! OMG!!!!!OMG!!!!!!oh my god!!!! im so here to rant about the nigght-which was yeasterdeay yeasterdae which was the Queenstown 50th Annavisery!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so rad n not too metion awesom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the hardest part of it was thow to get the ticket so i could go.at first PL had an extra ticket and was willing to give me it (for u outsiders the ticket cost 60 bucks) so i took it but had to sit with her family (which was not dressing up) and me (which was dressing up for the special ocassion) so yea i was a bit bumbed. as u all should noe that i seriously have no guts to dress up if it wer'nt for my friends - (sheren n val) who were. so i was a bit sad :( hmmm.... but so very 4tunate that i actually was going!!! so right on the specail day sheren got tickets!!!!! EXTRA TICKEtS!!! she gave one to me!!!! {PL's ticket went o shao} and the other extra ticket sheren n me went on debating who it shall be given too. we finally decided tt it shall be given to...the one and only kelvin !!!! [of course frm qtss] so yea , i went home [boy this is gonna be a long rant] and told my mom of the switching of tickets, and guess what??? she didnt allow me to go!!!! so i said to her "AT LEAST I TOLD U RIGHT!!!" and went off crying to my room. (she actually in the first place allowed me to go with PL's ticket cause then i would be sitting with her family {cause she thought it was a family thingy}) so off i went crying into my room... and after a while she went ino my room and talked and talked n finally i got the prvillaged to go ,as she actually called sherens parents (*holy crap!!!) okie so i gave sheren a call then started geeting ready !!!(i was SO EXICITEDDDD!!!!!!) ~WOOOOO i could go!!!! yea so i took about an hour doing my hair (i already bathed of course!) which made kelvin downstairs my house waiting 4 such a long time (sorry kel!!) so after tt i went to sherens house and actually changed into my clothes whitch i was gonna wear to the event, it was lyk a very nice top and a flowy skirt [some parts were long and some short) which was all b;lack of course and a belt and a necklace and some ther assceisorries[ my fingers are dam tired ] okie so i went to kelvin and sheren debating whether i should wear my black boots or not. (if not i would have to wear my converse tt would look wrong with what i was wearing) so i had absoully no guts to wear my boots so i wore my converse and had no time to do my make-up (i waasss soooooo saaaaddd!!!) and we went to the neptune which sherens dad drove us to in a very stylo car then we met up with val and jereme outside the place and jereme actually thought i was my sis cause i looked different. (kool!! he he) so we waited for PL but she we wnt up first. ok let me just say that sherman looked so coool!!!!!!!! and gothic!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG !!!!!!! (oh n my sis didnt come though) and jeffery looked so FINE!!! WOOOOO!!!! okie everybody was looked their best tthat day!!!!!!!! when i went there i regreeted immediately tt i didnt wear my boots and make-up. so yea. sur prisly so many ppl wore dresses!!! and a lot actually (most) thought i was wearing a dresss too. so yea we watched the concert and ate ( there were 8 dishes) in total. n we tooook soooo many photooooooosssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so kool!!!!!!!!!! oh yea we made fun of val n tj it was fun haha!!!!! n made fun of some other ppl!!!!!!!!!! wha some of the sec 5s n 4s wanted to take pictures with me!!! it was so cool!! n with val n sheren too. i was so happy tt a hell lot of my friends said tt i looked vry chio and great!!! whooaaa i was happy dude as i took so long to dress!!! oh sheren n val looked great too (: (tj was practically drooling and not too mention stared widely with mouth dropped when he saw valley!!!!!! cool man!!!!!!!!!!! btw the most gorgesous girl ther was jack frm sec 4d. the night was so awesom!!!!!!!!!!!!! and finally at the end i reached home at abt 12.30 past midnight. yesterday yesterday was just the best night ever!!! the guys looked SSOOOO HOT!!! and the girls absoullutely devine n gorgesgous! !!! i loved it (:

im loving it!! - mel
it was the best night ever!!!

2006-08-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

a TRUE friend-
.is honest.
.is truthfull.
.is loyal.
.some1 u can relie on.
.will always be by urside.
.is kind.
.will care for u as much as they care about themself.
.is helpfull.
.is pure.
.sure there will be some fights, but its experience and just makes the friendship stronger.
.will tell u her/his problems.
.will never leave u 4 some1 else.
.will think of others.
.will treat u seriously.
.never takes control over u.
.listens to other peoples problems just as u listen to hers/his.
.will never be embarrassed to go with you.
.will stand up for others.
.will never take advantage of people.
.very generious.
is very considerate.
.will stick with u still times end.
.who is willing to risk something for u.
.will LOVE u for who u are.

just ask urself now, R U A TRUE FRIEND???

~too bad there is nobody in the world who is lyk that, but i have found 2 people who almost are are. i have beenfooled many times, but now i know what counts. and i will try to be a true friend, cause i know what matters. unlike some people. well i need more experirence to a true friend.well at this rate, its gonna be quite soon. but being a true friend,also has its bad points, i would get hurt vry vry easily, tts wy mayb im so not up to it. at least i have i dare to say 76 percent of that circetia i hope!!!!

KEEP UR DREAMS~

2006-07-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

hey peepzz?? ppeezz ATEZzz^??? DudeZZ??/ and Dude ATEZ ^??? dun ferget BI TA CHEZ AND of course the very famous jackASSes? KOOOL MAN!!! PEACE MAN!!! chill lah u all, ,,,,;;;; e-lax lah!!!! WA LAU WAAAYYYY !!!! kool man1!!??? see VAL all ur fault ah u val!! ! see the way i talk or type?? aIYO u ah valll alll ur fault!! PEACE MAN!!! shitt!! see all val (; ~~~WOOOOOOOO~~~~HOOOOOO~~~~ kool man!!! i luv to irritate ma sis when shes talking to her specail some1 (; ha hah haha haha ha~~!!!! so fun to be a busy-body infront of her!!! hahaha !! wal lau way see keeep looking at me lyk imma RETARTD!!! wa lau way!!! PEACE man shareen!!!!! aiyooo.... *tsk *tsk *tsk .... KOOL MAN!!! i luv ma newiw bag man/!!!! its kool dudE!!!! serious!!! and whoever doesnt lyk it is juzta LOSER MAN!!! peace lah! hahahahah ok val see what u have done to me?? aiyo all u ahh.,... i g2t stop talking lyk this yea?? ok kool man~shitt ok lets try that agian....ok i g2t stop talking lyk this yea?peace lah!!!~shitt wrong.....ok ok pokie pokie dookie meekie!!!okok pokie pok pok ok!! ha haha this is fun man okokokokokok!!!!! i g2t stop!!! ok """""MELINA BACK TO EARTH!!""" ok yay done(: imma back....cool ok tmr the netballers have an acs(i) **FINE SHEREN!!! acs INTERNATONAL!!!!! okie gd 2 hear u tagging on my blog CHEYENNE!!! (: haha kool man.PEACE!!!!!!! hahahha!! shitt ok okokokookokoko pok pokpokie!!h ahahhahah okie imma really in a retarded mood ...ARGHGGHHHHH*** ok fine , since i cant control myslwefg~i mean myselffffffffffffffff... i'lll stoopoipoi~*stop NOW HAHAHAHaahaahaha!!jokshfdlchzds9iofcnbszpkxcjosicnuirhjcsf90we74hgtoijgkdjfg ~ ohhhhh so sryy89sdhf hhahhaha!!!!

kool man!!!peace lah u all!!! ~~~melina!!!!

2006-07-23T03:29:00.000-07:00

hey !!!! im SO HAPPY!!! as i bought my NEW NIKE BAG!!!! omg lah!!! i luv it!!!! its black and red!!! cool man!!! ~and it costed 72$ bucks! ): darn it.. but its nice anyways! i just hope i got the guts to bring it to school!!!

tts all~melina@!!!!

2006-07-17T06:35:00.000-07:00

So today i wanted to write mah bloggie entry in Indo for the heck of it!! ha ha im sucha LOOSER!!! ha ha ! here i go!!!

Hai orang oleh sebab itu todae saya mesti percaya pada tahap.
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Seperti membendung membuat kalut menakutkan ah!!!
Dan saya bisa menjadi rata mendengar Valerie seperti ketawa di saya oh tuhan saya ah!!!
Saya berpikir saya secara total salah!!!
Ohhh TUHAN!!!!
MENGELUARKAN lah.
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Saya dunno ah.
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Mr oz-laki-laki seperti mengatakan sebab pidato kami kami suka benar-benar dikacaukan ke atas!!!
Oh menggoda MANUSIA!!!
Omong kosong.
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Holyyy crrappp.
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Yea bagaimanapun juga CMS sudah kembali dan segalanya oleh sebab itu yay bagi itu.
Hmmm hari ini saya memimpikan eskrim.
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ohh mannn... so my dae i guess was mainly liddat. is'nt indo laugueue cool(:???

2006-07-14T05:15:00.000-07:00

so hi peepz, this is a pic of me and val(: at the excel fairs.THAT RETARD!!! dragged me into it!!! but in the end it was pretty dam cool! (see the projection screen is showing on my head!) hpppmmmffffsss....hey well im too lazy to wright anything esle, so as i always say'' in VALS MEMORY, --peace out man!!!

2006-07-13T03:54:00.000-07:00

hey people!!!! im soo00OOoooo HAPPPYYY!!!!! i finally worked things out wif cheyenne!!! and actually i realised that it was my fault ):" i started it. SOOOOO i was SOOOOOOOOO sry and i actually brusted out crying!!(i know tt im too sensitive)and tmr hopefully we can go out!!! i wanted to pass her something!!! YAY!!! i finally i feel lyk my world is spinning again (: cause i didnt actually realise how much she actually meant to me.how much i needed her. but now i do, cause ive realise that u can always realie or seek comfort from ure older freinds.(; ha ha. cheyenne+sheren U R OLD!!! haha! so im happy again!!! YuPp. (:

2006-07-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

hey so these past few days, ive been involved with this exel program (radin mas) {which val dragged meee innttoooo} but avtuall it wasnt bad, not really , we got a free pen , free cake, free bag, free shirt, freedrinks,free lunch ...and most of all i could spend somme time with val and siti and i could get to know louis, li xian , jun da, and some of my teachers~ a he;ll; lot more. so it was pretty worth it i guess. (: yea so it was kinda fun and it added to my CIP hrs!!! so yupp.!!! pretty worth it/!!! so right now im watching '' my dad is a rock star'' on nick. love that show!!! ha ha.!!!! so right now im tryingtaa sort things out wit cheyenne well i dunno whether i want it to or not. cause i cant take the type of pain she had caused me.anyway my hp money and savings r going down(doesnt tt lyk SuCkS!~!!!!!) better start not bringing my money to school so i can save it.i learnt that from zmah anyway.so anyway i think i will let this end herE!!! so as val, would say" PEACE OUT MAN!!!!" ha ha ;;;;;;;.......:P

god man, i hate talking things out.actually i hate complicated things! and right now im hating my sis for playing that ''annnoying frog''songgyyy thing!!! *YUK* haha!!!;;;;

2006-07-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

ok well, people this week i have learnt a very valuble lesson . i cant say what it is on my bloggie cause it is kinda privite. but thanks shao and val and clara, thanku all of u, for being there for me.and i should only be there for u too.

ONLY SHIT!!!! tmr theres netball, crud. i really really cant sprit i just cant. crap what the hell am i gonna do?? ahhh nvm at least i guess i wun die . signing off -melina-

2006-07-03T04:02:00.000-07:00

hi people!!! i feel sooo000OOO0000ooooo much better!!! actually todae val,clara,pei ling,siti,sq,shamane(i think) were supposed to go to escape but ... unfortunately...nope. pei ling n clara's mom didnt alllow them, shammane i think forgot abt it,sq was grounded and we lost contact wif siti and syahidah... so whos left? me n valll....then we didnt wanna go out cause not fun!!! we need at LEAST 4-5 or so people.if not its lyk sOOOOO boring...too bad.instead i went wif my family go to the maradian to eat some food then went wif my dad to go buy some art supplys.HEY !!!! so happy!!! :) got some really rad markers!!! and some cool other stuff.hey still terribly dissapointed abt what C said abt me...''HOw could she ever do such a thing??;;;'' n i KNOW that this isnt the first time"".. :( i cant believe that i even thought she was my friend.she hurt me so much u know... as i said ;; i was DEAD wrong. hey but i feel kinda better after val TRIED to comfort me.n most of all i keept brusting out laughing cause she keept complaining to me abt ''how she lost her poor dear EYEY!'' HA HA HAHA so dam ridiculous ah. HAHAHA haha*tear(it was soo00OOOooo funny!) shes such a gd person and such a loser! (: ;;and C if u keep thinking that i have NEW best friends maybe its because they just treat me like a friend-some1 i can relie on , some1 i can count on, and some1 i can TRUST. but i will not call them my best friends cause they aren't.friendships need more TIME to flourish. and i thought u of all people would know and understand that.

having loads of mixed feelings--melina
i would never forget abt the both of u,
but maybe u just keep giving me reasons to WANT TO.

2006-07-02T00:24:00.000-07:00

hhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm been thinking................................ i feel a bit more cheery (: anyway untill tuesday comes.....i ggueess::::;;;;;;; hey should i go wild wild wet or escape??.........HHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i waana go wild wild wet (: Wif secondary school friends :D

oh theres also something else i wanna say---C+S (without M) if ure reading this now...I KNOW ENOUGH ABT FRIENDSHIP TO AT) LEASTTT...nvmmm....cheyenne y the FREAKIN HELL do u keep making jugdements abt ppl so easily?! u ppl make my life so COMPLICATED!!!!IM SO DAM FUKING ANGRY N I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...+++ i neva said tthat bullshit
* OKIee!>?!?!?!?!?! so dun anyhow say such horrible things abt me!!!! even on ure bloggie sommore.... i would never get a new best friend so easily!?!?! n u should know enough abt friendship to reaalise THIS!!! if u got a problem with me, say it in my eyes.DO U ever KNOW HOW MUCH tears n pain u have caused me? how u both keep hurting me in endless ways i can think of? NO U DONT!!!! i thought u were my friend cheyenne??? i guesss i was DEAD wrong. i mean, what friend would do such a thing? i would never forget abt the both of u. but maybe u keep giving me reasons to want to.

ENDED
Melina
WHAT I THOUGHT WAS FUKING TRUE!!!! IS TOTALLY DEAD FASLE!!!!

y did u come? i thought it would have been a good thing but u know what? i thought wronglg! y DO U think so MUCH ANYWAY?!?!?!?! for my quit losted friend...

2006-06-28T04:59:00.000-07:00

sorry people i havnt blogged in quite a long time...hmmm, now im dam tired,stressed,sleeply,aching,having a heavy heart, at a total lost.well thats it for this fuking blog entry. wadever!

could anybody help me?
the world has gotton so compettive that im at a total loss.fuk everybody (N) and everything. i hate it! y couldnt it all be simple lyk last time? so much netball parctise.teachers expecting better from me, mom angry friends feeding me wif probs when i have more (A) my own!!! shiting fuking ppl i hate them all.curse them alll to go to HELL!

fuking shitting asshoollleeeiinnnggg wadever world!
Melina

2006-06-14T03:55:00.000-07:00

Hi people. quite a long time since i blogged i guess. so well this past few days my mom has been taking me shopping and i got some very rad boots!!! + a lot of converse shoes and more clothes. well im happy with what i got so yea ^=). anywae i cant wait till the curise wif sheren!!! ahhh!!!! im so excited!!!!!!!!!~!~!~!!!~~!!!~~!!~~~!!~~!~!!~! so yea... i guess thats lyk all for now bye bloggers!!!!

in a world of normality,
there might be a spark of magic.
signing out-**MeLL;;

2006-06-11T03:19:00.000-07:00

stayed hommmeeee ALLLLL dayyyy...& yyyeessstterrrddaayyy 222222.....whole day. stayed home....

ANIMAL I HAVE BECOME
I can’t escape this hell
So many times I’ve tried
But I’m still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can’t control myself
Chorus:
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe
It’s not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
This animal, this animal!
I can’t escape myself
So many times I’ve lied
But there’s still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can’t control myself
Chorus
Help me believe
It’s not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can’t control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmareI can’t escape this hell
This animal, this animal, this animal, this animalThis animal, this animal, this animal, this animal
Chorus
Help me believe
It’s not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal!
This animal I have become

(lyrics) song by Three Days Grace.==>love the song.u bloggers out there must check it out!!! UNFORUNATELY i could'nt find the song it the right format to put on the computer so i could not put it on the pc... :(

in the darkest* of nights,
there will always be a flicker of light*.
sso000OOOooo BoReD...
*MeLL;;

2006-06-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

HELLLLLLOOO!!!! im so bored here at home. i stayed home all day today... at least i could catch up on some of my reading :P i just finshed reading a book about wizardary. it was book number 2. now i can move onto book numba 3. guess what?? the ending was SUPERB!!! so UNEXPECTED!!! i LOVE that book ... goshhh...it was so INSTERESTING!!! i cant wait to read book numba 3--->>"high wizardary" whhoooaaa YAY YAY YAY so INTERESTINGGG.... YAY YAY YAY cant wait!!! """waaaaaa aaaaaa aaaaaaa yay yay yay cant waittt!!! anywaay i will be goin to indo on sunday this week but my dad wun be there :( he will be goin overseas for a bussiness tripp....aawwww so sad :( will miss him.but i kinda lyk really wanted to spend time with him during the holis.awww too bad. i guess that will have to wait..i guess he will be arriving soon to the house from indo to catch his plane in singapore. I KNOW!!! i can send himm off...if my mom allo0wwsss i guess....ouuuhhhh i hear my cat outside wanting to get into my home...wait i go open the door for her.ok yea back from opening the door...hi people.so todae was basically a boring day.next week thees no netball practise (: anyway today i have been recovering from training. i guess thats all to blog er something..ba bye bloggerzzzZZZzSSSsss...

through a happy* smile
sometimes u see a torn* soul.
signing off->>MeLL;;;

EXHUASTED (:

2006-06-08T01:19:00.000-07:00

hi bloggers!!!! todaeeee....hhmmmm... today is such a tiring day!!! my godddd....our netball coach made us run 18 rounds around the court!!! MY GOSH!!! o sheren came wif me to practise todae [yay(:] and today was the day sheren did 5 crunches!!! haha!!! it was so ridiculous haha. :P okie so most of the middle ball training coach banned me from playing coz i needed to rest {awww so kind!} as i had just recovered from my high fever and was gonna collapse at any moment from the harsh training. so after netball practise i WAS going to dawson was sheren then she suddenly crossed the street and went the opposite direction n i was lyk ''SheRen where are u going???'' then her replie was "dawson there what."i almost fainted. then i said its the totally opposite direction!!! HAHA.haha.stupid. i dun even noe y i blogged that.haha.so people do u lyk my new bloggie skin er what? ha. i took such a long time to actually find a bloggie skin to my liking!!! 1hr something lyk tt. for chooseing such a wonderfull n fantasic bloggie skin!! haha. okie so yea...then sheren came to my tution todae n everything yea...

<*smile(: today>
coz tmr's gonna be worse"
{exhausted but happy:)}
-~;;MeLL*~!

2006-06-07T02:21:00.000-07:00

yea today i went to serenee center with kelvin and valerie to do our physics project.actually andy and jereme were supposed to go but andy could'nt make it and who knows what happened to jereme.val came abt 1 and ahalf hours late i mean i omgz! coz she had tution yea.so lyk me , val and kelvin were siting there in mcdonals discussing our project and thinking of everything that we could possibly use.so we came up with a few great ideas i guess.tmr i have to attend miss tans tution {my physics teachers tution} which i find quite fun to attend i guess.haha. (:well, val took a taxi home and now my hp is ringing.wait.back.ok now my phone is ringing.wait.back. haha. ok.so nothing much has been happening these few days i guess. sometimes i get so terribly bored at home that i dunno what to do.well theres netball practise tmr..... {do u not see the wonderful pic i decorated today?} it rox!!! ok yea anyway tt pic was taken at mrs sign's farewell...//<<3;;

Eventually as time* flys,
we will get old*.
sgining off wif nothing ta do--MeLL.

2006-06-05T06:18:00.000-07:00

hi people!!! sorry i have not ranted for quite a while cause i been having a high fever lately and everything...ok so sheren got into queenstown.yay good fer her.now she has to learn how to handle it.so my fever has caused me to lose 2kg , thats good (: but the pain was unbearably bad, thats bad ): haha. ok. then i dunno whether i should go for netball practise tmmmmrrrr.....as i noe i should stay home as i am still recovering from my fever but i need to go for the practise later coach wil...nvm.(:but staying at home makes me SSSOOOOO000000000OOOOOOoooo RESTLESS!!!! i hate it. so i need something to waste my bound up energy on which is netball (: haha.so maybe i should go... then again...i dunno.hey im bored.

signing off-MeLL...